Random writing in a random situation

Inspiration – where are you?

By reading a book I started thinking about this horrible disease – the lack of inspiration. It’s more than mortal. It’s not about physical death, but pure spiritual destruction that annihilates all spirituality and creativity into the individual, leaving him empty, numb, pointless in a world of miracles.

It’s may be up to a personal choice whether or not they’ll get infected by it, I admit that. However there are those situations when it lurks you for so long, hidden behind the former corner, looking at you and smiling menacingly. You never understand it’s been following you, too busy in living on.

Then again it attacks! The very moment you feel down. It grasps you within its clutches and squeezes you mercilessly. There you are, mortally caught, and the only thing you can see is the horrible flame in its dead eyes that strike on you, rip your innocent soul and tear apart all happiness you might have managed to save.

You feel helpless. That’s what it wants – to bend your will and make you its docile victim.

You can’t breathe, your whole body hurts, your mind is empty, there’s nothing ahead, it’s all here and now, in this lethal embrace that you’re into, and no perspective you can see.

You decline, too tired to go on, when its complies come around and pierce their sharpened by the sense of victory teeth into what’s left from your soul. It’s not about your body, it has never been the point of the attack – mere materiel, transitional, traceless. It’s the spirit it aims at, your dreams, your ambitions, your hopes, your mind. So together they push you more and more, pressure you, hit you, strike you down, smack you, beat you, suck your powers, destroy you, annihilate, obliterate, erase…

Do you already feel the nagativeness it irradiates ? Then it’s time to counteract it! It’s strong just because you’re letting it be it. Raise your head and take it off… Fight, don’t let it get you down again. I know it’s hard, but it’s the only way to stay alive (spiritually). Here you are, out, among people, communicating; here you are doing what you used to be scared of\felt incapable of doing.

It won’t let you go easily, but you won’t be alone. There are so many other creatures at your side, fighting the same enemy; you just have to call them out. Relax, take it easy and it will get weaker and weaker…